This weekend has been awful....
Thursday was DH's Birthday which started off the overeating. Friday wasn't too bad, just overate a little again, but come yesterday the huge binge began and it's now 9pm Sunday night and I've just hit the point where I know I can't eat anymore and it's finally over... At first I tried to talk myself out of it, but if I'm honest I really didn't want to, I just wanted to stuff my face constantly. I've avoided reading weight loss blogs all weekend because I didn't want to think about it, I just wanted to eat and forget...
I feel like my stomach is going to burst and sicker than I remember being in such a long time.
Why did I do this? I really don't know, was feeling so good before the weekend, weight had actually hit a new low, if only slightly, and I felt so strong. Had a fab day Thursday out shopping for new clothes, had my nails and eyebrows done, felt amazing, so what happened? I really have no idea... The only thing I can think is that I binged badly this time last month, so maybe it's got something to do with my cycle, maybe not.
I just know I've got to get back on plan straight away, deal with the withdrawal symptoms I know are going to make my life hell for the next few days, and try to figure out a way to stop this happening over and over again like it currently is.
You know Lisa, every time I'm doing well and feel strong something evil takes control of me and I eat and eat and eat and end up back to my usual point. Last Sunday I was at my lowest ever 142, by Friday I was back to my usual spot 144.5. What did I do all week long? I hit the candy dishes hard and often. As of Friday I've been in better control and I'm staying there, which I'm happy. So get your feet back under you, you're not alone. If you ever want to talk, off blog e-mail me!!! I'm also on MSN messenger and FB. By supporting each other we can be strong.
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